Friday, May 26, 2006

--[ the story seas have calm down ]--

living with a guilt aint' easy.
today was an emotional day for me. finally knowing that i dunt have to think anymore. everything is known.

today. is the day where i finally chatted with him. tho we never talk for years, it just brings comfort knowing that everthing is alright. i'm being forgiven and all.

he was right, ppl like us aren't meant to be friends, it will just bring explortion everywhere.

just knowing that the stormy seas have finally calm, one problem gone.

it's weird, the felling i mean. all warmth and cozy inside of me, like finally the burdena nd the guilt that i have been carrying with me all this while is finally gone. everything was finally ok.

anyways he can't see us being friends but well mabye i do, if only i can put my jealousy out and andhe put his thingy out we could be friends, we could be normal.

like he said, nothing is weird.

other than that, life goes on, u meet ppl u trust ppl, ppl bitch behind ur back and all... that life, live it, risk it, take a step out of the door, take another step and explore.

today i finaly feel better. tho the guilt will remains and slowly fades away i wont forget today.

and to my sgy, dont work to hard. enjoy life while u still can.

i learn new things everyday, and there are still many question unanswered...

anyways good luck for you Ancient Civaliazation Thingy. god bless.


| caught in rapture @ 1:44 AM|

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