Monday, July 31, 2006
--[thotz...]--
went out on friday, it was great,
having an awesome time even though we didn't do much.
i will not elaborate on what happen.
life been really stressful atthis very moment.
i realise that i'm a failure.
i'm gonna fail my physic test tomorrow.
then i'm gonna fail my math.
then i'm gonna fail my o's.
before thsi all,
i already fail as the head designer which
actually honestly, really meant a lot to me.
but as usually, i won't have everything that i want.
even tho all you farking ppl say i have everything,
FYI i dont!
i'm so ttly lost nowadays,
i blew up easily,
i'm a walking bomb.
i called my goodfriend sisters a,
psychotic bitch.
i'm faking a smile again,
well, my life is in a real mass now.
at this very moment all i really want to do is to,
jump into the ocean and just drown myself as much as i can.
well, maybe the pool will be fine.
just jump in and stay beneath screaming,
shouting,
cursing and
hoping some miracle happen when i submerge.
can it happen???
life is so complicated,
just as when u think u got the hang of it,
u realise u dont.
| caught in rapture @ 11:22 PM|
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Monday, July 24, 2006
--[does it all matters in the end?]--
i always wanted to be someone famous.
i will get what i want,
by all means nessary.
i wanna be a designer,
create the magneficent clothing,
sparkling jewellries,
awesome t-shirts,
and fitted shoes.
i've done all that,
once upon a time,
i had a one day stall selling jewellries,
making big money.
i was once a t-shirt printing expert,
earning $15 to $20 bux per design,
5 to 8 t-shirts per month.
through my fairytale,
i deside to make myself a shoe,
it wasn't perfect but it was fine.
now still in my story,
where it was once a dream
but it is coming true,
being a designer for youth fashion fest,
it was a dream come true.
but all good things
come with a bad news.
having to take my o's this year,
the same year as having my dream coming true.
was it all worth it'?
can i realy juggle it all?
i know i have to make a choice,
and i already did.
i'm satying with my dream
my passion
my desire.
and even tho i might fail my o's
i'm taking a huge risk.
still confuse
on what i should really do.
does it al really matter in the end???
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| caught in rapture @ 11:03 PM|
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Tuesday, July 18, 2006
--[the colours of the rainbows]--
it is so clear to me now,
the colours of the rainbows ain't 7 magnificient colours in my life.
it all dull. grey. black.
the sun have finally set,
the night without the stars,
not a single moonlight.
i'm clearly breaking down
i'm falling apart
after keeping it kewl for months
i finally breakdown
i could just shead a tear scream or shout
anytime of day
1st
it all have to do with friends
all of a sudden i'm getting along with everyone!
peole who i trusted keeps things away from me,
while people who i despise are my friends
i wonder who am i nowadays,
i wonder who they are?
i wondering wad i suppose to do with my life...
i doubting every single second
2nd
yeah, the four farking letters
it is just so confusing
finally my songs make sense to me
i'm so confuse
i have no idea what i'm doing,
shasha was right,
i am shallow in a way
i have no idea
3rd
my fashion thing
it is so obvious that i'm falling apart
i feel like quiting every second of the day
buti have to keep it strong
i'm the only guy in the group
i'm the only person that motivates others
i'm in charge
ranjeet expects terrific work from me
i can't keep on motivating u guy
i need some motivation too
we are a team,
but i feel like i'm just a guy who help
but never got helped
lastly
all i've wanted i found somewhere else
do you really know me at all?
won't u take time off
to catch me when i fall?
i don't know what is happening to me
am i everything to you?
are ever gonna be
that real to me?
i won't want to repeat history.
sweet words are easy to find,
seeing you once again was dreadful
washing me in with
all the emotions
which was suppose to
be wash and gone.
what si you point in coming back after all this farking years?
and so this is my answer i say tonight,
this isn't anger
or a hope for a second chance
i just want you to step out of my door
and leave
never turing back
cause if we really meant to be,
we are ment to be
where i go?
i miss me so
sometimes its been forever
since i've been gone
where i go?
i miss me so
sometimes its been forever
since i've been gone
i wanna come back home
-end-
i'm running my own show,
it's all about me
in the end everything does matters
cause if it dosen't
i would prolly end my life now
| caught in rapture @ 12:01 AM|
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Saturday, July 15, 2006
--[love should be illicit]--
the heading says it all.
gosh how could this happen.
it's a high school drama. keeps on going.
a few more months.
-end-
the date is getting closer,
i'm felling the pressure.
i'm so left behind.
-end-
in fashion one day you're in.
the next you're out.
same goes for life.
yo are hot one moment and
just a plain odinary guy the next.
things change when you don't expect them too.
i could break it cause i made it.
i need this one. i badly do.
i'm gonna make it
through the end this time
i'm making it through.
i won't stop to shed a tear.
but i would think throught the year.
what i'll be doing and
where i will be
panning everying step
not regreting history
-end-
i use to lead a life on my own.
but everything just change,
i'm in the big picture now,
even though i really like my self portrait.
well, meeting new peeps everyday,
and allof them are in the east.
tough luck but i dun't mind.
no matter how much i moved,
jiwa tetap pat eastside!
-end-
yo dayah! nice seeing you again after a long long break!
so this saturday aight...
btw your huge crush will be there.
hahah he'll be entertaining you
if i am entertaining everyone else.
have fun, and tell your bro,
i'll hmm interact a lil more. hahaha
CheeRs all!
can't wait for 5th august!
btw, wanna like go study together or something?
| caught in rapture @ 8:49 PM|
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Sunday, July 09, 2006
--[things]--
i was actually going to show you my daily horoscope but, i lost it somewhere.so anyways, i was like thinking of some stuff and,yes i was in a wrong direction all the time.i wasen't suppose to be looking for someone like that,but i did. i shouldn't.- end
anyways, i saw someone the other day with that someone mom and dad,
tsk tsk tsk,
i ran away.
totally unexpected.
hmm let just pray that i'll meet that person again.
- end
i had my photoshoot today.
it was awesome.
in publice smile and posing like an idiot.
haha it was fun.
went through a meeting and,
finalise: we get to decide who our models would be.
- end
| caught in rapture @ 11:39 PM|
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Monday, July 03, 2006
--[No Kidding]--
Well, i saw that idiot when i was in town, but i just keep quiet, dunt wanna tell anyone.
i'm sure she saw me too, but who really cares...
she's totally different now... well, prettier then ever
but with all the wrong reasons.
kecian mak bapak kau...
anyways, went to this flee market thingy.
SO NOT MY CUP OF TEA.
the only reason i go is bcoz so that the others wont say nothing,
yelah same goes here and there... i'm too well off,
rich kid,
spoil brat,
i didnt get anything there except for this sign plate thingy.
well was there for like i donno hours and hours, i didnt have much fun lah...
but it was ok, new experience, hopefully i could lead
a simple peeasent life...
blah blah blah saw eddy with his new gal.
hate his hair.
blah blah blah, hmm saw no one...
well, finally met huda. it was hmm well, a movie in the early 16th century...
a silent one... hardly any talking...
gosh, me silent?? impossible!!
haha
sad but true, haha i was silent...
oh yeah i saw my pri skool friend or i tot he;'s my pri skool friend...
totally unsure...
anyways, can't wait for the next outing... hmmm...
and i still want my PIE!!!
| caught in rapture @ 8:23 PM|
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