Tuesday, August 22, 2006
--[no point]--
there is no point in writing anymore,
no one reads it anymore...
"you make me went up the stairs
when i reach the top your not there
standing all alone at the end
in the end"
| caught in rapture @ 12:39 AM|
__________
Saturday, August 12, 2006
--[ Friends ]--
Friends what does it mean?
Dictionary meaning of it:
1 ] persoon one likes and chooses to spent time with (non-sexual or family bonds)
2 ] sympathizer, helper
3 ] ally or neutral person (friend or foe?)
What does friendship means?
Dictionary meaning of it:
1 ] friendly realationship or feeling
So what is it really?
all i know that the one who creates this meaning dosen't have a clue on what lifes is about. What does friends and friendship really means to you?
here goes.
Friend/s is a noun.
There are the constant ppl you hang out with,it developes into a freindship.
Given a scene, of weather you choose loyalty or love, well, facts it, normal ppl whould choose love (i've done a survey on 20 ppls, 80% said love)
basically this things call "friends" can choose to come into our lifes and leaves whenever they want too. It os all up to us weather we would choose to mourn over it or just face the reality.
From experience, they should be able to be given that choice. They are teh one that build you as an individual. Everytime you spent with a certain someone a pieces of then stay with you. It's adictive, it's natural. There is no doubt about it.
But how much do you really treasure the bond?
Would you die for a friend?
If you were to asked me now, that very question, i'll say no. cause at this point of time in my life, i still haven't found someone with dying for even tho i have really special freinds in my life. BUT if it was for live. my answer whould be yes, cause love makes you wanna do crazy thing.
Yes, maybe i won't die for a friend, maybe it depends on the situation. Maybe i would it it is for the best for humanity.
All of this question is about you toward your freinds.
Have you ever thought what your friend might think of you?
well, i don't. I have thsi really good friend, he's good to me at least. ppl don't really like him very much. some friends say he don't like me. who knows if thsi friendship (that is wad i call it) is base on a lie. Maybe my friend who told me about my good friend of wad he say about me behind my back is just too bump cause my good friend has his gal.
being the so not popular kid, non clever, non atheletic, non good looking, i know finding friends are though well, hmm we humans are supercial, we pick freind by looks and those who are rteh same status as us. Thats fact. WHo what does it really means?
friends arethe one that shapes our lie, the one that helps us grow. it dosent really matter if they are still with us or non, weather we are still freind or foes... every part of tehn stick with us, a pieces of them will always be with us.
So if your friend, or a really good freind choose to leave, let them leave cause, they need to spread the joy and happiness one shared with you to another person who really eed it more, teach it and nature it.
Freinds are gods gives to us humans. They help us through. Even tho some aren't really good freinds or justthey for a hie and bye, thay are still a aprt of you and will always have a pieces of them inside of you.
so let me leaves you with a thought, and i'll appreciate it if i get some reply.
if you were to define freinds, friendship and what are teh qualities a friend should have, what will it be?
Email it to me at this address, morbid_theory@msn.com, or you can just tag my board.
i'm gooona trackback on this topic in a week.
p/s: upcomming post will still stressing on the issue of freinds.
| caught in rapture @ 2:40 AM|
__________
Monday, August 07, 2006
--[what's on my mind]--
who am i nowadays?
are you guys making me choose between my fashion fest
and my friends?
gosh... fuck that...
why is everyone giving me this shitty treatment?
what wrong have i done?
ouh yeah,
everything i do is a mistake!
SO WHAT IF I"M FICKLED MINDED!
its not like you know what you want in life!
for once in my life,
i tryied to do the right things by chasing my dreams
and keeping quiet.
if you guys think that i'm only with you guys cause
i dont have any other friend then you're wrong.
to hell with that.
i dont really care anymore.
AND HAFIZA FOR THE FINAL TIME YOUR ART IS FARKING UGLY!
everyone is trying to help you but itseems that you
dont wanna be help!
gosh!
and ppl i'm not your delivery man!
it's getting out of hand,
me buying food for you.
anyways none of you ppl tells me anyting anymore.
i'm so less appreciated now...
so yeah, it dosen't matter to me anymore,
i'm just sopissed of at all the things that happen today.
sleeping over it dosent work
so i have to drugged it now.
| caught in rapture @ 6:59 PM|
__________
Sunday, August 06, 2006
--[hmmm...]--
"If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I want to blow you--away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could see what I want to see
I want to see you go down--on one knee
Marry me today
Guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say
It won't do me any good it's just a waste of time
What use is it to you what's on my mind
If it ain't comin' out we're not going anywhere
So why can't I just tell you that I care
'Cause I'm feeling nervous
Tryin' to be so perfect
'Cause I know you're worth it, you're worth it
Yeah..."
dedicated to a friend.
anyways, hmm i going to SKINS! theater production.
Got free ticket, who wouldn't wanna go.
i saw that guy,
Hilmy's his name.
hmm, nth change much.
stilll the same ignorance treatment given.
he's not to blame,
if i could turn back time i wish that
i would have nevr made him.
life made easier.
anyways, hmm went ot desaru the other day,
only take 2 pics with dayah,
afraid of her mum and dad.
scary.
and sorry ya'll dayah's sib for not talking.
it was fun i guess.
me and dayah dont really talk much.
i took really nice photo's there.. hmm yeah,
but i dont really feel like showing.
i'm gathering pictures foir my gallery that is going to be in 3 years time,
hopefully.
have so much plan in life.
i wonder if any of it will come through.
let give that all to god to handle.
yesh, i still remember god for all u sick ppl info.
so many sins done and still keep on coming, piling up,
hmm finding a way to stop a certain sin but i guess i can't.
it feels good in a way.
well time wil tell.
hey hm yeah to all u sick ppl that say thati'm a loser and wont suceed in life,
to hell with yall.
and yeah for thet specail HIM!
wad i've thoght of you was right, u like any other guy
heartless
emotions less
moneyless..
btw i want my pants back, and my sweatshirt and hmm ny sling...
i'll be waiting..
and yeah it ends here...
| caught in rapture @ 11:32 PM|
__________
